So one of the very lovely people i've become close to over the past few months has suggested i read the Satanic Witch by Anton Lavey (Founder of the modern Church of Satan).

I havent read it, but i bought it and its currently sitting in my locker at work (And so shall be discovered by those in search of free smokes <theifs!> and lighters)

Now it shouldnt bother me, but I am too well aware of the idiocy of people.

See the word Satan, and you're a scary devil worshiper. God forbid you even flaunt it.(I know. I got pissed off at an ex cos he flaunted his hairy Satanic ass, and it was just annoying. He was consumed with selfishness. Worst part is, i'm probably no better. But the optimistic dreams of a bipolar teen are quickly banished by the cynical reality of the selfish)

But my issue is, I dont believe in Hell. I don't believe in Satan. I dont believe in there being white or black magick. I believe that is a modern invention. Magick is just magick, theres lesser and higher. Not good or bad. nothing is really good or bad inherently. It just is. Like life Just is, Magick Just Is. Its something we employ and name, a name that replaces the meaning of our power as individual items of a collective whole. I mean, its obviously not nice if you sit there and curse someone because they bug you. But white magick invented a way of making yourself feel better, by saying, you know. this person is an asshole, so im going to nicely ask the gods to give them what they deserve. but because you are judging this person to be bad, or wrong, are you not delving into an area of gray magick? Because even though you put it into the hands of a higher power that "knows better than you", you're still doing it for the selfish satisfaction of watching them pay for their deeds.

A judgement that is still not yours to make. No matter what. They have their own reasons for being jerkoffs, and if you dont like it then you dont have to look at it. Just deal with the fact there needs to be jerkoffs to balance your holiest self, filled with the pompous, idyllic right to judge them as jerkoffs.

But this is besides the point. I havent come here to judge the way people twist lore to suit their selfish selves.

I've come to deal with the issue of reading a book by a satanist, when i have no belief. Really its just a written assurance of my beliefs, and understandings of this books.

From what little i've read, it talks about a women's "Pact with the Devil". I got to thinking, if i dont believe in the traditional devil, how can i seriously take this book?

After much thought, i realized, the Devil is just the materialistic world. its the world of selfishness, lust, materialism, envy, sex, and all the boo-hoos of the christians that wanted to rule the masses (and might i say, successfully have, and still do)! And i realized, the pact with the devil is a womans acceptance of her traits and ability to use this world to her advantage.

Yes it's selfish too, but without one there cannot be another. I am a giving sort of person but i realize too the importance of being selfish. That way i dont lose my job. i dont lose my ability to progress through life, i don't get into or stay in unhealthy relationships too long. Selfishness is a way of self preservation, and i'm okay with that.

But even more than that, i realize this is a book of self discovery and acceptance. If you can accept a book like this, then you will rise from the ashes of what could have been a great civilization, one thats riddled with women in the wrong role, a role less effective than that which nature planned for them.

So i willlingly go forward and read this book, accepting what it has to tell me. I'll be reflecting on it in here, i assume. I will admit, i find it hard to swallow, only because of the mindless lore thats been drilled into my head all these years of my life. but we will see how my perception changes, how much broader it becomes. Part of me is still worried about the darkside, even though i'm very practical and aware that there is no such thing. It just is, like everything else in this world.

Whats good to you, can be bad to another.

And i've really thought about this.