I met someone wonderful. Someone that was just.. perfect for me. They were exactly what i wanted in a mate--- The EXACT thing!

What do i do? I fall in love with them!

Next, what happens? Well fuck he has a GF. Its all good, she never comes up, and his sweet sweet words caress my heart.

Then one day she comes up. And talks to me. And she talks about. How she loves him, how they're engaged, blah blah blah.

and i feel betrayed by those sweet words of caring, because how could he say to me that his day just got better, when he has a woman to already say that to!

And i feel betrayed by my own heart for i feel now, like i'll never, ever EVER be allowed one ounce of happiness.

Im so tired of existing.

Dutifully taking pills to make myself better, only to wake up more often wishing i could be dead.